Enjoy/ Nauti

"Sound of silence"

Oil on canvas

27cm x 22cm

This painting says:" When I am around you, the darkness in my mind goes quiet".

I painted this for someone whose company made me relax. It was easy to be with this person, because he was living in the moment, telling what he was thinking and feeling, he was honest. That way I didn´t have to try to read his mind. Back then, I was doing the "mindreading" with every one, like codependent people usually tend to do. But with this one, there were no doubts or scenarios crossing my head all the time. This quiet mind was new to me and I had space for other things in my head, such as my own emotions and thoughts. That´s what the colors are representing in this piece. True and honest people who live in the moment are gems <3.

"whore"

Oil on canvas 

27cm x 22cm

The word whore is written here on this canvas. I panted it once when I was drunk and very angry to someone.  I wrote whore with red paint and then wanted to cover it. At first, I wasn´t really sure why I was doing so, but now later when I think about it, I think it was a message to me, not to this other person.  I saw the ungliness in this text, in my behavior when writen such of a thing about someone and that made me want to hide it. 

I didn´t get angry, I got jealous and that made me angry to myself. Anger that came out as a whore-text. Now covered, still visible. Shows, well, that the things done or said will never be undone or unsaid.  I am glad that I noticed my own faults in this situation, that´s the only way to change them. 

"Deep waters"

Oil on canvas

Sometimes the dark thoughts take over, and my way to cope with them is to paint them, like happend here. 

"The onion theory"

Oil on canvas

I painted this when I was a teenager, searching for myself. I found it scare to peel off some layers, false indentities. I was afraid that at the end, there would have not been anything left, nothing real after all those fake layers. The real me is tiny and hiding because it is so vulnerable, but it is in there. It will be a long-lasting task to get to know this me.  A fun and intriguing task. "Sipuliteoria" in English means "The onion theory"

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